Holding onto Heaven

And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
I’ll hold on and hold on

I keep listening to my chest
For a beat but there’s nothing left
It’s been a week since I’ve seen you
And I still can’t believe it
'Cause I’m dying inside alone
And every day we gotta be apart
I’m like a baby with a broken heart
But the second that I'll see you
You will know how much I need you
Because I’ll never be letting you go
(Well you know I...)

I’m lost without you
And there’s nothing I can do
You’re the one I can’t go without
If I ain't holding on to you then I'll be holding out forever
I’ve got you now and
I’m not letting go of you
Never be together long enough
'Cause every moment I’m with you
It’s like I’m holding on to heaven

And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
I’ll hold on, hold on

And if I could write a symphony
Then baby you would be my melody
And you would flow like a river
Slowly going on forever
Like a feather that’s blowing away
Like everyone that needs a fairytale
Like every mother’s love that never fails
Like every game that needs a player
Every sinner needs a savior
I'm the villain you're willing to save
Now you know why

I’m lost without you
And there’s nothing I can do
You’re the one I can’t go without
If I ain't holding on to you then I'll be holding out forever
I’ve got you now and
I’m not letting go of you
Never be together long enough
'Cause every moment I’m with you
It’s like I’m holding on to heaven

And I’m willing to wait
Just to see you another day
What I’m waiting for
Will wash this pain away
And it’s never too late
(Never too late...)

And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
I’ll hold on and hold on
Now you know why

I’m lost without you
And there’s nothing I can do
You’re the one I can’t go without
If I ain't holding on to you then I'll be holding out forever
I’ve got you now and
I’m not letting go of you
Never be together long enough
'Cause every moment I’m with you
It’s like I’m holding on to heaven

And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
'Cause every moment I’m with you
It’s like I’m holding on to heaven

And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
'Cause every moment I’m with you
It’s like I’m holding on to heaven

Encouraging Words

Just the other day I was reminded of one of the best moments of this past year for me.
It was the first lock-in that our youth group had with our new youth pastor Brandon and this lock-in seemed like nothing out of the ordinary, just playing Grog, Knock-out, and Euchre. I mean that's what we did all the time at lock-ins with our old youth pastor. But it was around the time of 11:30 that night when he did something different, he took all of us into the little worship center in the church and we had ourselves a miniature worship service with music and a short message about being the future of our nation and world. But it's what he did after this is what was amazing, he said to all of us that he wanted to pray individually with each one of us. So he started at the back of the room and worked his way toward the front of the room, which is where Jake, Kent, and I were sitting. Then I looked around and saw that we were the only people left in the room. So Brandon walks up to us and sits in the row in front of us and says these words; "You know if it weren't for you guys I probably wouldn't have taken this job. Because I have been to a lot of churches and youth groups and  I always saw a lack of Male leaders in those youth groups. So when I was called for this job I was thinking that this church was going to be no different and then I saw you guys and how you lead this youth group and then I knew that I wanted this job. You guys should consider yourselves leaders and role-models for the other people in the youth group and the younger kids." Now I don't know how that made Kent or Jake feel but for me at least, hearing those words and me only being a sophomore made me almost begin to cry. I mean Brandon just told me that he took this job because he saw us as leaders. WAIT a minute! Sophomores aren't supposed to be leaders. I mean I can't remember ever watching a college football game where the Quarterback was a sophomore. He was always either a Junior or a Senior. Now with Kent and Jake both being Seniors it didn't really surprise me that he called them leaders but calling me a leader, now that shocked me. I shouldn't be in the same category with two seniors on terms of leadership I mean they have been in the youth group for 6 years and I'm just past my 3rd year, I don't get it. I mean I don't know what I've done to be labeled a leader or role-model. I'm still looking up to other people as role-models and leaders including Brandon himself and sometimes even Jake and Kent. I was feeling really confused at that time but then I felt something inside of say "Hey, don't over think it, just keep doing what you've been doing." I know that had to have been God talking to me. He was telling me that I had been called a leader for just being myself and for being a young man of God. It just took Brandon telling me that I was leader to realize that I need to be just the person that I am to be considered a leader. No more, no less! I will always remember that night and Brandon's encouraging words.

My own Songs

After reading Jana's last blog post, it inspired me to create my own list of songs. And here it is;
1.)Call Me/Shinedown
2.)Further From Myself/Pillar
3.)If Everyone Cared/Nickelback
4.)Letters From The Sky/Civil Twilight
5.)Lost In You/Three Days Grace
6.)Lullaby/Nickelback
7.)In Between/Linkin Park
8.)Simple Man/Shinedown
9.)If Today Was Your Last Day/Nickelback
10.)Interstate Love Song/Stone Temple Pilots
11.)Who We Are/RED
12.)Suspension/Mae
13.)When We Stand Together/Nickelback
14.)The Coldest Heart/The Classic Crime
15.)The Bitter Uprising/The Classic Crime
16.)Face to Face/Daft Punk
17.)The Only Exception/Paramore
18.)Everything/Lifehouse
19.)Do Not Move/David Crowder Band
20.)Jet City Women/Queensryche

I just love these songs! 

Clever Title For a Blog

If any one comes to me and asks me this question;

I can just tell them to read my blog!! 

Yeah Buddy!!

Who got a B+ for his final grade in chemistry? This Guy!!

Let the celebration music commence!

The Beginning of Summer

My summer is going great so far. First getting a car, then going to Oneighty and playing frisbee in a parking lot (never done that before) and seeing some good friends there from chemistry class, speaking of chemistry I felt so cool dropping off my homework at the Middletown Park and knowing that I never have to do any of that ever again. (I bet a few of you also felt the same way.) Then starting a book study at youth group, which I believe is going to go really well, then finding old music that is still awesome to dance to with your sister, also finding new music for my summer playlist, then adding some games to my summer gaming list like Driver: San Francisco, Mad Riders, and Saints Rows: the Third, and getting a new graphics card for my computer. I also have plans for the near future like buying new sunglasses, new shorts, and getting that Ethernet cable hooked up. The funny thing is though I haven't technically finished school yet and I have all ready done all of this. But this summer is going to be awesome. Now I leave you to go to a LAN Party at Brandon's house.